What’s new?

It’s been over a month since I wrote in my blog. I’m sorry. I truly didn’t mean for it to take this long. Work was draining the life out of me and I just couldn’t commit to writing. My mind was on overdrive. However, I’m back! And now I have endless time to write because  I’m finally giving myself a vacation.

Well, to start off a lot has happened in the past month. As I mentioned before, I have a house to take care of, which still needs work to feel like home. Also, I let go of my job (as of this week) and I’ve been studying to pass an exam. On top of it, I’m doing my best to keep myself a priority because God knows my health issues aren’t going to solve themselves.

I don’t feel good about myself whatsoever at the moment. Then to help that feeling, I weighed myself just out of curiosity. I usually don’t look at the number as a bad or good value ;yet, I didn’t realize how much weight I have gained due to working a lot, dealing with the move, and overall trying to adapt to my new environment. Can you believe I weigh 156 pounds now?! I know that doesn’t seem like a lot, but that’s actually the heaviest I’ve ever been in my life. My normal weight would be 135 to 145. So my goal for the next couple of weeks is drop 15-20 lbs. I know doing so will make me feel so much lighter.

To summarize, this number made me feel worse. I’m glad I know what it’s like to go through change and I grew up an athlete so I know what to do. Cardio! Cardio! Cardio! Typically I drop weight quickly as long as I stay on a caloric deficit while eating nutritious foods.

Now that’s my other issue, my body has changed and now what I used to be able to eat doesn’t work for me. My body is rejecting so many “common/normal” foods for me that I don’t know what to eat anymore. I feel constantly bloated even by eating a salad. Its ridiculous!! I know so much more plays apart to how I’ve been feeling and I know it’s mainly stress.

Thankfully, I no longer have to stress about the things that I was stressing about. I found out about Gisele Bundchen’s cookbook from listening to a podcast. I love her ideology of food because it align with mine, “let food be thy medicine.”  Her story is also inspiring and relatable as far as being on a health journey while trying to keep it together. She talks about how she needed to change her lifestyle and habits quickly or else. She had to quit smoking, eating (whatever was available to her), as well as drinking alcohol in order to survive through her physically and mentally demanding work. She was spiraling mentally ;although, she was still making work happen. Something had to give.

I think a lot of us can relate to that. We all have responsibilities and unfortunately money doesn’t grow on trees or else we would make ourselves priority and not our work. We still need to learn how take care of ourselves to survive through whatever life throws our way. Healthy habits will do just that.

So life isn’t all that peachy at the moment, but it could be worse. Literally, I could be dying.  As for now, all I can keep doing is working on getting back to myself. One day at a time.