Trip Home

I just realized what I needed was this trip to know what it is I need to do with my life. I have been hating work because I have been constantly under the pressure of getting a lot done and I forgot that I do love engineering. I just don’t love the constant pressure.  Don’t get me wrong, I am good with pain and pressure but constant pressure drowns me with so much anxiety that I forget to breathe.

On top of it, I’m dealing with a health issue that is forcing me to evaluate the life I truly want. With that, I need to stay proactive on with prioritizing my health or else life can really change in a way that could end it. So I’m doing my best not to worry about it.

I spent my trip with the people I most love. I picked fruit off the trees in my backyard with my father. I walked in the sun. I hiked by my beautiful pacific coast. I went and took a pilates class at my upcoming go to studio.

I hung out with my best friends. I went to a doctor’s appointment. We made a plan and got my vitamins and medication needed. I went into an actual gym twice and lifted weights. I obviously couldn’t grab my 25 dumbbells to start my warm up so I went for the 10s. Its okay. It felt so good regardless. I am so happy the post surgery pains aren’t such an issue anymore. It’s been five weeks since I have been slowly getting back to lifting weights again. Movement that being lifting weights or a body weight workout have always been a big part of my life. It’s gotten me through life. It’s been my therapy before I even knew it was.

I love the feeling of working through stressful situation and solving problems. That feeling of accomplishment is reviving. My trip home was reviving. This is when I found out: I must respect the pressure for it builds me, but I must also respect my rest because it heals me.